I would like to take this opportunity to enlighten a few people.
But more so to get a couple of things off my chest.

For the last few months I have been caught in a spiral of worthlessness.
This comes due to the impact that others have on my life. During this period I have felt stupid and unattractive (physically & mentally).
No matter how big or small each person's impact may have been, each impact has chipped away at which was once my hard exterior.

To address the situation of my intelligence I will let you all know something that I have kept basically to myself for the last few years.

When I was 11 it was discovered that I have a learning disability known as Minimal Motor Dysfunction (MMD). This disability (in basic terms) attacks the body's processor "the brain" slowing it down to a fraction of it's normal speed. Your typical MMD sufferer will lack hand eye coordination, reading & writing skills, muscular tone, basic interaction skills and the ability to grasp simple concepts quickly. This (in my opinion) also attracts low self-esteem.

Although my condition is nowhere near as bad as others, I still suffer from some (if not all) of these "symptoms" and most people just pass it off as me being stoned all the time. I have never used my condition as an excuse for not doing or not trying something and consequently there has never been anything that I haven't been able to achieve. Seeming that I know this you would think that I would think pretty highly of myself and not have self-esteem issues, yet this is not the case.

So this is me regaining some confidence and adopting a "Pierre" type of attitude and saying "mock me if you will, but I don't care". I know what I am able to achieve and I have nothing to prove to any of you.

This also leaks in to my physical appearance, there is not a single person I know who is completely happy with their body. The way I see it I could live on lettuce and cabbage water and be "healthy" or I can live life to it's fullest, screw my "optimum" body weight and live the dream...a heart attach at 40,(lol) Cos if I can't love me then no one will! So I embrace my tit and I ogle my overly large, hairy, fat ass and say "I don't care what you think, this IS me, I am NOT plastic, and when I get close to a fire I DON'T MELT!"

This isn't a "stab" at anyone specifically, as I said this is just me expressing thoughts...like milk...
But if you think this applies to you then maybe these are just some thoughts to dwell on. Because even if you don't know me, chances are you do or have made fun of someone that you don't fully understand. As for me, my goal is to be the oil on a ducks feathers.


Jah bless


Ziggie, Rolland Romanny...you decide



I am who I am and that's who I am, and there's no other man like me!